What happens when we receive into our bodies without listening to them?
“I am frightened of sex. I don’t know what I want anymore. I was sexually abused and I have given up hope that I can ever enjoy sex without these terrible memories. I’ve got terrible pains in my belly. I keep getting recurrent thrush which makes it impossible for me to enjoy sex. Sex is painful for me. I feel lonely with my body.”
Our biggest gift to our selves and others is our capacity to receive, hold and transform in our bodies our dreams and our partner’s dreams into reality.
So what happens when we receive what we don’t want or know we are receiving? We become as blind to ourselves as each man we allow to be blind with what he is giving us. But our bodies know and our bodies can see and our bodies remember. We have a responsibility as women that men don’t have. We are recepticals, and if we allow ourselves to be filled with anything that hasn’t come through our hearts first, our bodies close up and our sexuality shuts down. Alternatively we mimic men, take charge and use our bodies like a penis, blind to the fact that we are still actually receiving. These experiences and childhood or adult traumatic experiences of being invaded emotionally and/or physically can have a severe impact on a woman’s body and her capacity to trust. In extreme cases this can lead to vaginismus.
Most women benefit from a clear out of all the trapped energies that we are holding in our bodies. This is often the first step into bringing our bodies back into a place where we can at least feel ourselves again. From this place we can discover and learn to listen to the wisdom that each of us has in our bodies. “My hips don’t lie” sings Shakira. Our bodies tell us what is true for us.
Eyes before touch.
I invite you into a safe and nurturing process where you will be in choice again with what you receive, using just my eyes. You will learn what you want to invite, and how to communicate that, so that we are always in permission. This will fundamentally change your consciousness around what you give permission for, giving you an opportunity to step into your power with what you invite.
From this place of trust you are then ready and in choice to begin to explore being touched with healing intent. This experience restores the bodies natural authority with how it wants to be touched. There is a natural sequence to this guided massage. As we are never in informed consent in a new experience, I will never take you further than your body understands. This massage, called a Yoni healing, begins with the belly space and moves to the hips, legs, and feet, releasing all the energy trapped there. We then move into the sacred cave area. This is your opportunity to be touched intimately without goal, for your own discovery, so restoring your bodies experience of how you want to be touched, in choice and with permission. When you are in choice, you are not in fear of giving your power away to another’s intent and you are liberated to invite what you want.
I don’t feel confident with my body as being attractive. Can you help?
Then you are feeling how a huge percentage of our population also feel. I am inspired with the experiments done with water where three bowls of water are given different messages. One is told “I hate you, you’re ugly”, one is told you are beautiful and I love you” and the third is ignored. It is only the bowl that is given loving eyes and loving messages that does not become stagnant after days. Humans are different; we have believed in the messages given to us over years to the point that we are covered up with too much fat on our bones or wearing clothes to disguise our shapes or we have shrunk ourselves to be invisible. We remain like children unable to grow into our natural adult bodies, always with the hope that we can grow again if only someone would parent us as beautiful and worth loving.
I will guide you on a liberating journey with your body in soft light till you are crying uncontrollably with remorse that you ever ever thought you weren’t beautiful. You will find yourself parenting that little child or adolescent where your body changed and grew before you were ready to become an adult.
Its crippling for any woman to emerge and be seen and celebrate her body and express her joy with her body with self conscious concerns hampering our naturalness. What we don’t always understand is that it is our very naturalness that is attractive, beautiful and arousing for us and others to enjoy. Fitting the boxed ideals does not make us juicy and available for pleasure. The very act of manipulating how we are seen and received indicates we feel we are not worth loving in our naturalness. Selling ourselves is the ultimate betrayal of our worth as being lovable as we are in our unique naturalness without the need for our beauty and lovableness to be confirmed for us by others.
You will feel all the love and compassion for yourself, with me witnessing with my loving eyes, to finally step out of your clothes and into the light as the shining radiant woman you are in your naturalness.
Another route to healing your body image is to be painted, which is pain free, relaxing and you get a record of your beauty to cherish for the rest of your life. Every time you feel doubt, you can be reminded of the radiant feeling of your being seen with loving eyes and it being true in the evidence of your painting.
The choice is yours!
